Final week: Graf

Self as a Writer
Thought one:
I need to spend more time reading. I know that that is the foundation to my problems. If I read more, I would improve my grammar, spelling and diction. I know that I need to work on proof reading, and maintaining tense. But I am aware of it and try to correct the problem. I read aloud, and sometimes I print the pieces and physically edit with a red pen. When I proof, Ihave a habit to read right over the incorrect word and say the word that I think is there.
I have pushed myself through this course, and through the many times that I was frustrated and wanted to give up. But I didn’t, I am tired of being a quitter.
I use to enjoy writing, now I have begun to look at it differently. Honestly, there was more stress involved than there was fun. But again, I think that that steams back to the fact that I don’t read for pleasure. As a writer, I was not as creative as I have been in the past. I took a lot of the assignments literally, even when thoughts came to mind that were not literal interpretations. I just couldn’t develop the creative thought into anything beyond a few sentences, so I would go with the literal. But also, maybe in my growth I have become more left brained than right. Though there were pieces, I wrote this semester that I liked, and felt were creative.
Thought two:
There were many times that I would sit down to type, but I had very little to say. I felt distracted by other thoughts. It was like I was at loss for words. As a young person, and a young writer, I still need to find myself, and my voice. However, when I did find a prompt, or snatched up an idea that lit up that bulb, I could go on and on, and it would flow.
Thought three:
I did not feel as confident as I did in high school creative writing. I had more time for each piece in HS. Writing is a form of art, art doesn’t just appear, it is crafted. You see I am a stream of conscious writer, and then I spend the most time crafting and revising my work. I was truly challenged in this writing experience; it was demanding but also flexible. My mind was twisted into a pretzel for most of it. I guess really, I don’t know where I stand as a writer. I used to write all the time, but I found that painting did more for me, I enjoy the process more.
Thought four:
I am a still a beginner. I still have a lot to learn; content, grammar, and style. I write about things that mean something to me, I used to call myself and emotionalist. I am still searching for my voice. I think that I do well with images, and tones. However, the view is usually, I ..blah blah blah.. I.. blah blah. . I. .. I. . Yeah definitely need to get out of that self centered prospective. I think that I would do better in fiction writing, I have come to this conclusion just recently. I wish that the rhythm would come to me, and I would be filled with great gratification after every piece that I write. But that is not how learning works, the only way to learn is through failure, and I am sure that I have failed on some of these assignments. In the beginning of the course, you said, writing is a test of character. Well believe me, my character has been tested.